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Eleanor · Put · Those · Boots · Back · On
You Know You Are So Elegant When You Run
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Enough. Enough with all the pretty fonts and *return-returns*- trying to find a way to make my prose unique and different from every other sixteen year old girls make up the majority of 'blogs' in the united state (i just recently came to accept) has absolutely no idea of how to separate state from oil from gas from church from sexism from cultural genocide were the first words i heard this morning when i turned on my televisions are the first weapons created by the government to keep us from realizing how truly beautiful miss america was when she snorted two lines of 'special k' just before making her grand entrance as the superhero she really isnt it funny how life changes and how we are forced into the same mold as the kids new kids on the block talk a lot of shit, new boy bands make me remember how truly fabulous it is to walk into my bathroom, open the toilet seat, throw up and then thank god that im a mother fucking americans wave the confederate flag and then complain about terrorism, how ironic yah, i really do think how this fucking pathetic this attempt of 'correspondence' is making me want to vomit because it is the epitome of everything i hate want think live breath lust fuck kill observe admire love- it is you. ~ll~ |
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Mmmkay, so I've been thinking to myself that I DESERVE to give a rant blog; Here it goes. To person V: I've been thinking a lot about you lately, and it makes me sick to my stomach. You do things for him that I you wouldn't do for your best friend. I hate the fact that because he doesn't particularly care for me you've dropped me like . I want to scream at you 'I WOULD GIVE EVERYTHING FOR YOU AND HE WON'T GIVE YOU THE TIME OF DAY.' But I know that won't help. You, Person 'V', claim that he is special to you... HE IS GOD TO YOU! Its seems like you would give your world so he could be half as attracted to you as you are to him. Why? What makes him so special? Why is it that you push all of us away but you try to pull him closer and closer with each breath you have. You claim to be in a 'relationship' with him; yet he says he would drop you for his next crush.
To be frank with you, I want you to get hurt. I want you to feel hurt and pissed and angry like I'm feeling. I want you to finally see the infuriation and frustration I feel every time I see you hold him, spend... no not spend, WASTE, every time you waste your time, life, money, resources, EVERYTHING on him.
Person 'V', I want you to know this indefinitely: I LOVED you. I still do, in my own way, obviously not as much, but the spark of care is still lingering somewhere in me. When I look into your eyes, I can see this barrier that blocks you from all else. All persons who care for you, how beautiful you are, your potential, your spirit, your grace, my eyes, me, us, my desire to save you from yourself, my hand reaching out, my hurt, my spirit wanting to rekindle the open relationship we once had... With your covered eyes, everything is lost. Why?
You know what I see in his eyes, Person 'V'? I see apathy; Apathy towards you and all others that try and get close to him. I've tried to like him. Hell, I tried to love him; I tried to embrace him the way I did with you, but its nearly impossible, so I gave up.
My advise to you, do the same.
Before I end this however, I want to pose you this question: Do you think anything you give will ever be paid back?
Think about it. Okay, my rant blog is over for today. Good job for all who read it through.
Eleanor's feelings on the matter at hand-: |
 irritated |
Eleanor's bebop of the day-: |
RENT- Broadway CD | |
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THIS IS STARLA SHE LIKES BIG THINGS THE IRONY? SHES A MIDGET... 
i <3 YA MISS STARLA BIRD!!!
Eleanor's feelings on the matter at hand-: |
 exanimate |
Eleanor's bebop of the day-: |
Shiny Toy Guns | |
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 like? dislike? wanna cut me bia? comment annonomously comment with a screen name dont matter... |
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ack. i hate to say it, but i kinda miss shelley... weird huh? i think it is, i mean i havent talked to her since like eighth grade... unless u count the funky bitch-fit thing we threw on our ljs. whatever... sad though, i was lookin through some pictures of eighth grade and theres like one of me bein stoopid in home ec. with ms nance and shes next to me with demi and someone else whos name i forget. but i mean things were kinda fun... for me anyway... she didnt seem to 'content' when she reminesed on eighth grade year but w/e... boo... i dont like this feeling. its ugly...
kinda like this: ( Read more... ) ok, nvm, thats funny... but no really, it saddened me... boo
Eleanor's feelings on the matter at hand-: |
 sad |
Eleanor's bebop of the day-: |
T.R.I.C.- OTEP | |
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sometimes i wish a falling piano would kill me no... i'm not having suicidal thoughts its just sometimes i feel like: A.) i'm having suck a good life i think, shit, i don't want to ever feel *blah* again and if i died, i would die happy... B.) the world is collapsing in on me and i;m like what the fuck! where do i go!?! C.) i'm stressed out of my mind D.) i start loosing hope... hope in what, i don't know... i don't know what i do know is that right now though, i wish a fucking baby grand would shoot out of the sky and shatter my skull on the tile...
Eleanor's feelings on the matter at hand-: |
 crappy |
Eleanor's bebop of the day-: |
Good News for People Who Love Bad News- Modest Mouse | |
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MISS ELEANOR WRITES:
hey yall!
im in a great mood... i just got a nice little reality with the "Im so cool" virus... hah
it was kinda fun
HEY HEY HEY HEY HEY HEY HEY
GO GO GO GO GO GO GO GO GO GO
CHECK CHECK CHECK CHECK
MY MY MY MY MY MY MY MY MY
NEW NEW NEW NEW NEW NEW
BACKROUND BACKROUND
AND AND AND AND AND AND AND
SHIT SHIT SHIT SHIT SHIT SHIT
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
IM PROUD COS I DID IT ALL BY MYSELF!
GOOD JOB MISS ELEANOR!
thats my new name for myself, by the way
lisa still lives, just i got inspired to change it
so i did
just so u know
anyway,
much love to you all
MISS ELEANOR
Eleanor's feelings on the matter at hand-: |
 jubilant |
Eleanor's bebop of the day-: |
I'm your Villan- Franz Ferdinand | |
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i am THOROUGHLY DISQUESTED!!!!!! the new HIM cd was generic trash. it sounds the same. nearly every damn song starts with a guitar solo and then the pick up thing with the drums... they rushed it too much... gawd, im sad but the franz ferdinand CD was good, or i liked it anyway, especially do you want to. its the best song since a british nanny!!! hah, stoopid. anyway, thats about it for now. tata dearys
Eleanor's feelings on the matter at hand-: |
 infuriated |
Eleanor's bebop of the day-: |
Franz Ferdinand's new CD 'YOU COULD HAVE IT SO MUCH BETTER' | |
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Fuck you All of you with your anorexic dreams of being model will never come true pure and simple are virtues any human will never know, not even mother teresa fucked the pope over with her words are the rope that bind us all to eternal insanity is beautiful and hidious like the elephant man verses woman will forever be the lament of a drag queen elizabeth was a virgin till the day she had a good fuck
fuck
fuck you
Eleanor's feelings on the matter at hand-: |
 annoyed |
Eleanor's bebop of the day-: |
Oasis | |
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| You Are Likely The Family Retard | 
At your darkest moments, you hit your head against the wall.
At work and school, you wear protective helmets and are likely chained to a chair.
When you love someone, you tend to be very stupid.
In friendship... shit you don't have friends, your too mentally ill to keep an active friendship alive.
Your ideal jobs are: something that is monotoneous and where they hire retards... maybe wal*mart or something...
You will leave your mark on the world with your own personal poopie and urine... i doubt you'll have kids though... unless your Sam from I Am Sam. Other than that your not getting any so... SCREW YOU BITCH! |
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Yes, i know its been like forever and an eon since i last updated... sorry... anyway, first topic at hand
LISA AND DANIELLE RE-U-NITE this weekend!!!!
*puts on super secret club ring thats acctually a donut*
*bites ring* MMMMMMMMM!
delicious... second
AFTER THE TOURNY IM GOING TO SEE THE EXOCISM OF EMILY ROSE
accompanied by sam sarah brian and of coarse, bob, my imaginary bf... gawd hes good! mmm third
i have a crap load of stuff to do to get ready for this week.
like my beloved mr chemistry's hmwk
and stoopid torguson's crap as well as
mcgarrity
mena
manning
russell (how i got hmwk in his class, dont ask me i just do) thats it i think ive consumed several books including, but not limited to:
A.) Food and Loathing
B.) Of Mice and Men
C.) The Skin Game
D.) To Reach the Clouds
E.) , said he Shot Gun to the Head man those books were good! i recommmend them to all of you. especially To Reach the Clouds by Phillipe Petit... it was about his tight rope walk across the top of the twin towers... i thought it was awesome! lastly,
jennifer, if u read this im sorry ive been a bitch to you... i didnt mean to and yes... i am sorry... that is all
lisa levins signing off o yea, to end on a light note
i thought this was uber funny: 
Eleanor's feelings on the matter at hand-: |
 listless |
Eleanor's bebop of the day-: |
Get Behind Me Satan- The White Stripes | |
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well im spent! i mean on him. im done and im through playing around and i wish i didnt feel like this weird, but i do. its like i really, god honest, wish i could go back to the way things were, but i cant. something left and it wont come back and for that, i feel like an utter bitch bastard! damn you man! its like when i look in his eyes... i feel, something, everything and nothing at the same time... really weird to explain i know... I KNOW! its like water,
if you leave it there, it will get moldy, thats how i feel... moldy, and like no good. and he used to mean the world to me and now i feel 'guilty' crushing on someone else. STOOPID PETTY THOUGHTS!!!! im sorry... BTW, WHOS GOING TO THE VANISHED SHOW TOMORROW AT LUCKY DEVILS?!?!?!?!?! I WANNA GO SOOOO BAD! Yuck, i feel ugly... like i dont know. someone i hate. do i tell him or like just let it go... i think apathy is the bast solution. thanq much if u read it. if u know what to do comment, if u dont, im sorry i wasted ur time...
Eleanor's feelings on the matter at hand-: |
 confused |
Eleanor's bebop of the day-: |
Nightwish | |
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HEY YOU WANNA SEE SOMETHING FUNNY? 
HECK YES!
and the crazy fun kid who gave it to me...
BRIAN BALL LADIES AND GENTLEMEN! ITS A CAR WASH LADIES AND GENTLEMEN!
HAH!
i <3 that quote... PURPLE ELEPHANT!
Eleanor's feelings on the matter at hand-: |
 giddy | |
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so you know how ending comments is always a bit ackward...*silence* bitches, you know it is! ive found something to fill the void... PURPLE ELEPHANT! its makes you and the other person smile/laugh... and if u laugh... thank me for extending ur miserable life 10 seconds... supposedly neway... i was listening to the stoopidest song the other day...
LUDACRIS- ROLL OUT
and i know what ur thinking... WTF? right? i know... im that good... HAH neway, yea, it was addicting...*sings* roll out... WHAT!? DONT JUDGE ME WHAT? WHAT!?! WHAT!
yea... it went to my head and i think its funny... neway, heres a random picture i shall bless u with... here... go on... ta-a-a-a-a-ake it... you know you want it *sooooo bad!
 Dont you wish your president was HAWT like me...
 mmm... katharine hepburn... IN COLOR! ( come )
Eleanor's feelings on the matter at hand-: |
awake |
Eleanor's bebop of the day-: |
oh, goddamnit- hot hot heat | |
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ok, so i was like inspired(?) to like make a journal for cunt muffin... yes... i know its parapuligic... no no, not even, its QUADROPULIGIC! hah, i learned that recently... (thanq much ms gonzales!) neway, yes so this is the journal: cunt_muffin yea, and so add cunt muffin or it will add u... MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHA *GASP* HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH!
meh o well, o and dont worry about cunt muffin posting *stoopid* things cos ill probably write in it even less than i write in this one... o well... i need to go finish filling out 411 for cunt muffin so ill c yall later, o, btw, heres some fun stuff ive been meaning to post, so yes, bye now... ( mmm... randomness... yummy... )
Eleanor's feelings on the matter at hand-: |
quixotic |
Eleanor's bebop of the day-: |
SciFi | |
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goodness, its raining today. thank god! lately its been day upon day of hell... meh, but im over it. I WANT TO MEET TONY LITTLE! that krazy guy always makes me want to buy his 'gazzell'. DAMN U TONY LITTLE! hah o umm, i have a band... yea, thats right! its called CUNT MUFFIN if u want tickets to all our pimp shows, comment or email or w/e hah... pimp... hehe neway, yes, CUNT MUFFIN WILL RULE YOU! just thought u should know... RANDOM THOUGHT:
jello wiggles... frog guts wiggle... coincidence?
I
THINK
NOT!
Eleanor's feelings on the matter at hand-: |
 giggly |
Eleanor's bebop of the day-: |
Modest Mouse | |
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ok, so the past few days have sucked... CHOCOLATE SALTY BALLS!!! hah... *sings* ...suck on my chocolate salty balls... now that ive finished that fiasco, on to the next... what was it again... damn it... o yea, i cant figure out how to make a music video play on this *stoopid* thing so yes, if neone knows, please assist hmm... well in other news ive finished that *stoopid* drivers ed book dealio... and i wrote notes in it... and i highlighted. and i summarized some of it and for god's sake i pracitacally can recite it to you. I SAID GODDAMN! but yea, permit=car and i am DYING to get a car. RANDOM THOUGHT:
I want a naked cat... like the one dr. evil has...
well im alergic to cats hairs so if i have a naked cat i can put him if sweaters and bows and make him all frilly and hell love me and ill love him... hah!
but i want a boy cat, not a girl. girl cats are bitchier...
o well,
*GOODNESS!* im tired, gonna go nap...
~lisa
heehee... Giney... heehee
Eleanor's feelings on the matter at hand-: |
 drained |
Eleanor's bebop of the day-: |
Hedwig and the angry inch soundtrack | |
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Music Video Codes by FVC I <# YOU MADONNA!!!
Eleanor's feelings on the matter at hand-: |
 sick | |
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YAYA! Much paise goes to _________ (Annonomus guys who commented). thanq and my apolotgies for being stoopid with computers... btw, my parents are being all parapuligic and took away my computer.
so this isnt lisa typing... its lisa taking on the phone to nathan and he is doing it for her... because he has no life *stoopid*
hehe, he knows i love him much...
here are more pictures for ur viewing pleasure...
including, but not limited to:
josh r
sam g
octavius c
carl g ( Read more... )
Eleanor's feelings on the matter at hand-: |
 anxious |
Eleanor's bebop of the day-: |
Inside the mind of a Serial Killer | |
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